I have had a lot of chapters in my book. My chapters always seem to end the same, with a move.
Soooo... yes, my Arizona chapter is ending and a new chapter is starting.
My California chapter.
My feelings of moving are of course bitter sweet.
My life is funny. I seem to get burned out of places pretty quick... I give thanks to my dad for that. Growing up we moved all over the place all the time... never living anywhere for more than four years. So naturally, this has had an impact in my life now that I am an adult. Since turning 18, I have lived all over the place. Utah for two years, North Carolina, back to Utah, back to NC, back to Utah again, when I lived in SLC with Erin, then back to NC (yes, I had a problem)... then to Vegas for a year and a half... AZ for two years, and now to California.
It's true, I do like to move. It is very easy for me to just pack up and head out. However, I am ready to settle down and stay in one place. I have wanted to move to California for so long, even before I met Robert. I always pictured myself on one of the coasts, and Cali seems perfect. Plus, I am totally a Cali girl already.
Reasons that I am stoked:
-New Job: I will be working at a new company called HOA organizers. It is a small HOA company, but has a lot of potential and I am pretty excited about it. It is going to be different than what I have been used too. I have worked for the same company for four years now, so its definitely going to be a change. I am also one step away from being California Certified which is awesome. I got my M-100 test results back and passed with a 91. I was sooo happy about that. I hadn't taken a test in forever, so I was proud of myself. Things are looking good on the career front... I am excited for what's to come with work. I love what I do!
-New Place: I love California. I mean, how could you not. Great weather, TONS to do, by the beach, close to the mountains... its great. Plus, I am still really close to my family (but we will get to family stuff later). For the past year and a half I have been going back and forth to California (thank you Southwest Airlines) and every time I like it more and more. I am excited to be in California full time.
-My Relationship: I know I know, duh... Robert is a huge reason why I am moving to California. We have been doing this distance thing for too long and I for one am super sick of it. This is definitely the next step in our relationship and I am excited to see what will happen next. It will be nice to be able to see him every day and not just every other weekend. I hope that this just makes us stronger and happier!!!
Now for the sob stories... Reasons I am sad sad sad...
-Ella, Peyton, Winston: Need I say more. I am absolutely in LOVE with these three little ones. Even as I write this I am starting to get teary eyed. Ugh, it is going to be very hard not seeing them all the time. Wow, Victoria... I am going to be a wreck. I promised my sister I would come back at least once a month to visit, which I will for sure. It is going to be so hard leaving them. I know they are so little... well, Winston and P are, but Ella, I think she will know that I am gone. That little girl and I have gotten so close and I am going to miss her so much. She makes me smile and laugh and just makes me so happy. (Now I am crying my eyes out, and at work...) It hasn't really hit me that I am leaving, until now I guess. I need to stop writing about this because I am a MESS and I am worried that some homeowner is going to walk in here and see my crying my eyes out = not sooo professional. So let's just say, its going to suck not being around these kids all week long :-(
-My Sister- Enough said right there. I won't get into it about her, because the sobs will continue. But I will say that I have developed such an amazing relationship with her over the past two years and I love her deeply and will miss her more that anything.
-Change: Change is always hard. It is definitely going to be such a transition moving to California and starting a new life. Plus, I am all alone. It will be a challenge, but it will be good for me.
I am glad that I have Robert and Robert's family in California and know that they will be there for me if I need them. AND I know that MY family is only a short plane ride away and that they will always be there for me no matter what, even if I am in California.
OK... so enough of the sadness... let's talk about the weekend. We had another low key weekend... nothing too exciting. Just hung out with the family, watched some movies, went to the park, grilled out, and played some games. Mom leaves today (sad... tear...) which sucks. She has been here for almost two months, so it is going to be hard to see her leave. We are going to lunch today to say our goodbyes. I will probably cry my eyes out, because apparently I am an emotional wreck today. I also went and got my hair cut. BIG MISTAKE. I am not happy with the result at all. I feel like she just had a field day on my head. I am sure that I am being a tad dramatic, but I am not happy with it, and not happy at the fact that I spent $150.00 for her to do something I could have done better. I wont complain about it anymore... it's just hair and it will grow back. I might go get it fixed but I don't want it any shorter... so blah to my hair.
Yesterday Ella, Jordyn, Mom, and I all went to the park to fly Ella's new kite. PROBLEM: It just wasn't windy enough, so we played instead. We rolled down the hill, played horsey (where Ella was calling me HorHay, not really sure where she got that), and ran around. It was a lot of fun and a great way to end the weekend. Thanks to my sister for catching these awesome pics :-)
My last day of work is Thursday... I leave Thursday night for California. I am taking the California law class on Friday, hanging out for the weekend, and starting up at the new job on Monday. Big changes are coming... and I am very very excited!!!